"Fuck it! I'm doing what I want!"

My time has come. I am officially 3 days away from THE best day of the year. . .WINTER BEER FESTIVAL!!  I know, I know it's JUST a beer festival (if that is how you feel then we absolutely cannot be friends anymore) but very few people truly understand what this day is to me. It is my one day of the year that I get to be a normal person and eat and drink whatever the hell I want! It's my "day off of Celiacs". Now I guess I should re-phrase I don't really "get" to do this, I choose to do this. According to my doctor "it's not gonna kill ya" (I may have had selective hearing during that whole conversation) so why not! I refuse to accept the fact that I can never drink good beer again in my lifetime so this is my way of making a deal with the gluten free gods.. . .I get one day a year.

If you don't know me well then you probably don't know the love I used to have for micro brew beer. Not only did I love the beer (mmm Vanilla Java Porter) but I loved the culture surrounding it. There's this whole subculture of brewers and beer lovers that was just completely me. And then one day I was told I have this dumb ass disease and my world fell to pieces. OK, that might be slightly dramatic but I did cry. It's one thing to go on a diet or to choose to become a vegetarian but to be told you can never have certain things for the rest of your life and you have no choice just plan sucks. I know it could be a hell of a lot worse. . .if this is my ailment in life then I am damn lucky, but it still sucks. People just don't quite get it. It's so much more then just not being able to eat certain things but I don't need to get into all that now. I'm excited about my 1 day and I don't care about the ramifications. Truthfully I have no idea how I am going to feel. Last year I had only been gluten free for a few months and it didn't affect me that much so we'll see what happens!

I think you should all take a cue from me and take a day to do whatever the heck is is you want to do. People are so freakin uptight now a days with not allowing themselves to eat this or do that or "I really shouldn't. . . ".  You would be surprised how great it feels to take a day and just say "Fuck it! I'm doing what I want!" In my case it probably won't feel so great the next day but that makes it even more important that I enjoy every last second.

My official list of gluten filled foods to eat on Saturday: a jelly filled doughnut, Pizza Hut bread sticks, an original chicken sandwich from Burger King (forgoing the chicken nuggets this year), and a Twix.

It will probably do me some good

I've come to the conclusion that being an adult takes far too much time, effort and energy and I'm quite certain I don't like it. I spend way too much time either at work, cleaning the house, paying bills, doing laundry, grocery shopping, and doing the hundreds of other "adult" things that are really not fun. I know life can't always be fun, but I really wish I had more time to do the things I enjoy instead of constantly trying to get things done and get caught up on chores.

Since I'm probably not going to be rich enough to not work and hire a house keeper any time soon I've decided I need to try and get myself in a better routine of keeping up on my "adult" responsibilities so I can have more time to do the things I enjoy and to just relax.  I seem to have a lot of lingering projects I need to get done that in the end would help me save time so I decided I'm going to take the month of March off of life. I obviously can't take a month off work, so I need to spend the evenings and weekends focusing on getting some projects done and getting myself in a routine that is conducive to doing all the things I want to be able to do. I seem to be a fan of doing things like this (remember when I only ate fruits and veggies for two weeks?) and I'm kind of excited. I need some time to focus on me and March seems like a good month to do it.

I tend to be a very impulsive person and just do what I want to do when I want to do it. I definitely need to learn a little discipline (a little, not a lot). In the end it will probably do me some good. I'm hoping to get myself back on track with a gym routine too. I've been way to hit or miss lately and really need to get back into it. I have a 2 piece bathing suit that I WILL wear this summer damnit! So. . I'm inviting you along on yet another one of my random little life journeys. (And yes, I know it's not even the middle of February yet, but this is a very hectic month so it didn't really work to start now.)

Total unrelated side note, 2 more weeks until I take my day off Celiac Disease for BEER FESTIVAL! So stinkin excited. Stay tuned for my list of gluten filled foods I'll be eating that day. . .CHICKEN NUGGETS!!