Early Life Crisis

I'm going to start this evening by re-stating my original disclaimer. My blog contains a lot of swear words, I am not politically correct and I will probably say something that offends you. That's the point. I'm not intentionally trying to piss people off but I decided to write a blog so I can just write my ideas, thoughts, and opinions unfiltered, no apologies. I tend to speak my mind and not hold much back, but to survive day to day life (and not get fired) I do have to hold back and filter some of what comes out of my mouth. The reason for me writing a blog was to not have to worry about any of that. And contrary to what my husband says, I am not trying to be mean!

So on that note, this evenings post isn't offensive or mean. Just keep my disclaimer in mind for future posts :)

I've decided I'm going though a minor early life crisis. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up and I'm getting really sick of trying to figure it out. I'm not saying anything good or bad about my current position, I just have SO many ideas of things I would love to do or businesses I would like to start but no means of implementing any of them. And we're not really in a financial position to just try something out and hope for the best. I have a huge desire to have my own business I just don't know what or how to start. I really would like to find something I can be passionate about and build a life around. I'm also totally open to winning the lottery and never having to work again :) SO, if any of you have any experience in helping people figure out what they want to do with their life let me know! Or if you have a large sum of money just laying around with nowhere to go, I would be happy to help ya out.

(SEE I can write a post that isn't "mean")

Random bit of advice. . .

First, my follow up from the Winter Beer Festival: AMAZING day. . horrible night and next day. If I ever doubted this whole gluten free thing it has been more than re-confirmed. The most depressing part of the whole thing. . .I don't even like the taste of beer as much as I used to. I still thoroughly loved my Vanilla Java Porter and a few others but I didn't love em as much as I used to.. . .depressing. The day in and off itself though was a blast, especially hanging out after in the stadium club and ordering $60 of BK on the Brewer's Guild credit card :)

Second and what I actually wanted to blog about, I've decided 2 things: I am totally a dude at heart and I don't get girls. I absolutely love hanging out with guys who have dirty, raunchy humor and just don't give a shit. I usually surprise them because my humor is dirtier and raunchier than theirs and I really, truly don't give a shit, not like the girls who pretend they are one of the guys but then get offended at every little thing they say. Sometimes, I really just don't get the female race. I absolutely love my girlfriends and would be lost without them but sometimes I just don't get em. Luckily I've found a few soul sisters who are quite similar to myself but overall girls are crazy! I don't get the "I wish he would do this but I would never actually I tell him what I want" and the "she's such a bitch but we pretend we're best friends" or the "my boyfriend absolutely cannot go out without me and if he does I'm going to be pissed". Get a fuckin grip. If there is one thing I absolutely cannot stand it's couples who are attached at the hip and won't do anything without each other. I also can't stand girls who get upset if their guy looks at another girl or (OMG) goes to a strip club. If you don't have enough trust in each other to let the other do what they want then you probably should re-think your relationship. And if your dude has to "get permission" from you before hanging out with his buddies then I say your damn lucky he's even still your dude.  I know I haven't been married that long but I'm pretty sure one of the big keys to a happy marriage is not losing your individuality. It's important to compromise and learn to be a couple but it's just as important to still have a life of your own and let your other half have a life of their own as well. If you have to drastically change to be in a relationship with some one then it is not a relationship you should be in. . .this goes for friendships too.

Pretty sure I strayed from what I originally wanted to write about but there's a random bit of advice on relationships for ya. . it's good advice, take it. If you don't, then it's your own fault if you die old and alone.

"Fuck it! I'm doing what I want!"

My time has come. I am officially 3 days away from THE best day of the year. . .WINTER BEER FESTIVAL!!  I know, I know it's JUST a beer festival (if that is how you feel then we absolutely cannot be friends anymore) but very few people truly understand what this day is to me. It is my one day of the year that I get to be a normal person and eat and drink whatever the hell I want! It's my "day off of Celiacs". Now I guess I should re-phrase I don't really "get" to do this, I choose to do this. According to my doctor "it's not gonna kill ya" (I may have had selective hearing during that whole conversation) so why not! I refuse to accept the fact that I can never drink good beer again in my lifetime so this is my way of making a deal with the gluten free gods.. . .I get one day a year.

If you don't know me well then you probably don't know the love I used to have for micro brew beer. Not only did I love the beer (mmm Vanilla Java Porter) but I loved the culture surrounding it. There's this whole subculture of brewers and beer lovers that was just completely me. And then one day I was told I have this dumb ass disease and my world fell to pieces. OK, that might be slightly dramatic but I did cry. It's one thing to go on a diet or to choose to become a vegetarian but to be told you can never have certain things for the rest of your life and you have no choice just plan sucks. I know it could be a hell of a lot worse. . .if this is my ailment in life then I am damn lucky, but it still sucks. People just don't quite get it. It's so much more then just not being able to eat certain things but I don't need to get into all that now. I'm excited about my 1 day and I don't care about the ramifications. Truthfully I have no idea how I am going to feel. Last year I had only been gluten free for a few months and it didn't affect me that much so we'll see what happens!

I think you should all take a cue from me and take a day to do whatever the heck is is you want to do. People are so freakin uptight now a days with not allowing themselves to eat this or do that or "I really shouldn't. . . ".  You would be surprised how great it feels to take a day and just say "Fuck it! I'm doing what I want!" In my case it probably won't feel so great the next day but that makes it even more important that I enjoy every last second.

My official list of gluten filled foods to eat on Saturday: a jelly filled doughnut, Pizza Hut bread sticks, an original chicken sandwich from Burger King (forgoing the chicken nuggets this year), and a Twix.